Wednesday, September 8, 2010

I'm not as good at this as I hoped I would be...

So as the days waste away and the weeks flash by, I realize I am having a hard time keeping up with this blog. But I'm sure any mother who is reading this understands that time is no longer abundant. I enjoy sharing my life with the blog world, even though there are probably only about 3-5 people who actually read this. So I vow to try to update at least once a week from now on!
 Because it's been an entire month since my last post, and so much as happened, the easiest way to do this is by a list.

1. School has started back, and for some strange reason I don't feel as devoted to it as I usually am. I can't really place a reason as to why I would rather spend my time doing something else than sitting in class. A big problem we ran into was trying to find someone to watch Kynlee while we are in class. As much as I hate the idea of taking her to childcare, that seemed like the only way to go about doing it. I put our name on waiting lists back in January, so I thought for sure we would find somewhere for her to go. Oh boy was I wrong! Mommy lesson #32: If you want adequate child care for when your little one arrives, put your name on a waiting list the second a plus sign shows up on your pregnancy test. Even before you tell your parents, tell your child care provider! You've probably figured it out by now that we didn't get child care. I had originally registered for 17 hours, because that was the only way I could graduate on time, but I had to drop down to 12 in order for Kynlee to be taken care of, which is my first priority. After dropping that class, my schedule was freed up a lot more, but there were still 2 hours, 3 days a week that we didn't have Kynlee taken care of. Luckily, one of Corey's friends came to the rescue. (Thank you Brittany, Kynlee say's she's having a great time) Even though childcare would've provided more time for me to study and go to the gym, it's nice not having to take her anywhere, because Brittany just comes over to our apartment where she has everything she needs. I absolutely hate leaving Kynlee, but I know I have to do it to graduate, and luckily it's only for 6 hours total a week.

2. Sleep was something to cherish the first few weeks after Kynlee was born. Because I am breastfeeding, she sort of needs me to survive. Which means I am at her beck-and-call whenever she wants me, whether it be every 3 hours or ever hour. This was so exhausting for me the first couple of weeks. I felt like I was never able to recover from having a c-section, because the longest amount of sleep I was able to get was 3 hours, if I was lucky. I think Kynlee felt bad for making mommy so tired, because from the time she turned 5 weeks, she has been an awesome sleeper! One night we put laid her down, (she put herself to sleep) and 5 hours later she woke us up to eat. I was amazed! That's the longest amount of sleep I had gotten in forever! I fed her, laid her back down, and 4 hours later she woke up for the day. If you're counting, that's 9 hours! This continued for a week, then after putting her sleep one night, I woke up with sun coming through my window. I automatically thought something was wrong, but to my relief Kynlee actually slept through the night! At 8 weeks old, she slept for 8 straight hours. Even though that has only happened once, she is still a good sleeper. She will have some bad nights, but for the most part she will only wake up once to eat at night.

3. One thing that me and Corey bought for Kynlee was a swing. We thought this might be the best purchase we make, but she absolutely hated it for weeks. But luckily she loves it now, which is a relief because we thought we would just have to stare at it through her entire childhood. Like I said in #2, she has a bad night of sleep every once and a while. I have no shame about what I'm about to share with you. Okay, maybe a little bit of shame, but I was desperate! After 3 nights of minimal sleep we decided to bring the swing in our room to help her go to sleep, I kind of drifted off with her. The music is just so dang soothing! 4 hours later she woke us up to eat! I felt so bad, but also soooo rested. The next night she went back to her usual sleep routine, so I didn't have to break out the swing again thank goodness.

4. Because I can't work right now, Corey is the only one supporting us for the time being. Even though I am so grateful for this, I really miss him while he is gone. Now that school has started, he is in class all day, then he goes to work most of the night. The only day's he has off is when I have night class so he can watch Kynlee.  I know he really hates leaving us, but we both know he has to do it in order for us to afford anything.   He feels like he is being a bad father because he can't be there all the time. But he doesn't see what I see. I love watching his grow as a father. He is so good with Kynlee, and even though he is tired from work and school, he provides a lot of relief for me. Whether it be soothing her when she is fussy, or letting me take a nap when I am tired.  And I can tell when he looks at her, that he has never loved anything more. I can't wait to see their relationship grow over the years.

Even though I have so much more I could talk about, this has turned out to be entirely too long! I know that wouldn't happen if I kept up with it more. But like I promised, I will update it more frequently. For the time being, I have a cute baby looking at me, wanting me to play with her. So until the next time, hope this was enough to keep you occupied!

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