New Home..

Even though we're not completely settled in yet, it's been great being in our new apartment. We're having to work around having Kynlee, so when she is sleeping, we are trying to clean and organize. We don't have our bed up here yet, so we are sleeping in the living room, which is kind of uncomfortable. But of course, Kynlee doesn't know the difference. I really like our new place, but I wish I would have looked around more and found a place with air conditioning. It never really occurred to me how much we would need it until she arrived. I have lived in an apartment without it before so I thought it wasn't going to be a big deal. I really worry about her though. We have a window unit in each room, but it doesn't provide the same relief. The doctors tell us to judge how to dress her based on what we are wearing. If we're comfortable then a baby is probably comfortable. Everytime I see a baby on tv or in pictures they are all bundled up, but here in the apartment we have her in just a onesie, and sometimes socks. Even though her body temperature has remained normal, I'm afraid she isn't as comfortable as she would be in warmer clothes. I would love to swaddle her, because she seems to like it, but it seems like it would be far to warm. I knew going into this, that motherhood would be accompanied by worry. But I hate not knowing exactly what to do for her when she needs something. I wish I had a pediatrician in the family because I feel like I go to babycenter.com everytime I have a question about something. Because of my constant researching (and help from doctors. I'm not completely relying in the internet to help me care for my newborn) I have learned that her nasal congestion is completely normal, and with saline drops and a nasal aspirator, it should clear up. I have also learned that when a newborn's fontanelle (the soft spot on top of her head) seems soft, it's not always because they are dehydrated. As long as she seems content, and she is having around 8 wet diapers, and 4-5 poopy diapers a day that she is fine. I seem to get worried over the simplest matters. Sometimes I find myself wishing she would get a little older already so I can stop worrying myself sick over SIDS. But motherhood is a learning process for me, and another thing I have to teach myself is to stop worrying so much. There will always be a little worry to every day, but hopefully I can learn to not let it get to me, and enjoy every day while she is this age, because I know she will be grown in the blink of an eye. 

We're moving back to Boone tomorrow!! I'm so excited to be moving in with my husband and sweet baby girl!!

Catching up...

When I started this blog, my intention was to update it every other day or so. But being a mommy doesn't allow that type of freedom. I've had a hard time finding the time to update everyone, not only because I have Kynlee but because we have also been in the process of moving into our new apartment in Boone, and we've been out of town visiting Corey's side of the family. Anyways! Kynlee is now a little of 3 weeks old, and time is flying by fast! I'm glad she came early, because it gives me and Corey time to get settled into the idea of being parents before classes start back up. If it were up to me, I would love to take the semester off and spend all my time with her, but I know if I was to do that, I would never go back to school. I only have three semesters left, so even though its going to be very hard, I'm going to try to finish on time. I am dreading taking Kynlee to childcare though. I don't like being away from her for even an hour, I don't know how I'm going to handle an entire day away from her.  It's been great being at home, and having my mom for help if we need her, but Corey and I are very ready to be moved into our apartment. It's hard being married, with a child and still living with your mother. The only reason I'm living here this summer is because my doctor was in Asheville, and I could work at my old job as the manager of the Black Mountain Pool. So even though I don't want to start classes, I really want to be back in Boone....But Kynlee is doing great, last time we went to the doctor, which was 5 days ago, she weighed 7'4, which the doctor says is good. Being a mother is definitely the most exhausting, hardest thing I have ever done, but at the same time, it is also the most rewarding. It can be frustrating when she won't sleep at night, and when she wakes up to eat it's hard knowing I am the one who has to get up because I'm the one that has to nurse her. But at the same time, it's all worth it when I see her smile for a split second (even though smiling right now probably means she is passing gas) I would do anything for that little girl, and I absolutely love being a mother so far......  I'll try not to go weeks between my next post!

Sleep Deprived...

I think the title speaks for itself.